Just My Luck

This is the email I got from Park University today.

When do I graduate?  May 2012.  

When is Park finally getting the major I have always wanted?  August 2012.  

Is this just my luck? Yes

I have been struggling with lately.  Relationships, Graduating, School, Houses, Family, Future, and what I want to do with my life has been tossing and turning in my head for several days.  I have been so worked up that I am losing myself.  Being home in Savannah means the same monotonous routine.  

Wake up, watch television, workout, surf the web, read, go to bed and repeat.  

Living in a small town with nothing to do leaves you lost in your thoughts and today has topped the list of frustration.  All last night I was researching schools to get a nutrition degree and came to the conclusion I have no motivation to go back to school or the funds to manage and push through this obstacle.   The thought of wasting a few more years to get this degree turns my stomach.  I don't want to put my life on a hold.  

I dream of the days where I get married and have children and going back to school will push this dream even farther back.  

Today I was working out or rather getting out my anger and frustration and a song about Jesus came over my Ipod.  I had put this on my Ipod for my 2010 Chicago Marathon to maybe push me when I felt down and today it helped me out just a little more than it did in 2010.

I closed my eyes and I seen my future.  I want to be a photographer.  This has been my dream all along.  I never wanted to be in journalism but I chose the major photojournalism because photography majors do not get jobs.  I went to school to get a degree but through the whole four years I had one outlook and one outlook only: to own my own photography bussiness.  My boyfriend and I already have a "side" business: www.luminousreflections.com but I want this to be full time.

I want to set my schedules.  Edit when I am not shooting and working on a food/health blog on the days I am not working.

I do enjoy health and it is one of my strong desires and passions but I now see this will not be my career but something I just enjoy sharing from my blog or in a conversation with friends and family and ultimately through this blog.

I am going to hopefully spread the word around about my blog if someone does need health advice and through this device I will share the wealth of my knowledge.

Wish me luck on my journey.